“Not all those who wander are lost”. I came across a piece of art with this quote on it by Tolkien. I’m not quite sure why, but it has made a formidable impression on my heart in a very short period of time, almost at first glance. Of course, I had to buy it to hang it in my home.
It reminds me that it’s okay to wander. It’s okay, at times, to feel directionless. You’re not lost. You’re going somewhere, even if you’re going slower than you would like to be going.
Have you ever walked through deep water? You walk slower.
Isaiah 43:2 encourages us. It says, “When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.”
I question myself so often. Am I being the Mom that my children need me to be? What will my children be like in their adult years because of the way I parent? Will they be independent, contributing citizens, making a difference in their world? Will they believe in themselves?
I’m reminded to slow down. Take it one day at a time, one minute at a time.
Each night, I ask my three year old son, “Is there anything I need to say sorry for tonight?” He can usually think of something that I find humorous. I ask him, “Is there anything you need to say sorry for tonight?” He usually says no, but sometimes he’ll ask me to “give him for his havior” (forgive him for his behavior).
I say that to say, each day, we build upon the one before. We make mistakes. We learn from them and move forward. We apologize. We love.
Love is not what we do though, right? Isn’t it who we are? The Bible says that God IS love. We’re striving to be more like Him.
I may be slower at adapting to motherhood. I may be slower at figuring out how to be a parent of two while finding balance in every other area of my life. I may wander at times, but I AM NOT LOST.
My mission is to love. To be love. To grow in ways I had not planned.
Be encouraged. He has chosen you, your story, to change lives. Take baby steps. Go slow. Take time to wander. You’re on the right path.