I was sitting in our toddler’s room, trying to get her to sleep. Finally, she was quiet and still. My eyes had adjusted to the amount of light that the small nightlight gave off in the dark room. I very clearly saw our 9 year old son walk into the room from the well lit hallway. He stumbled through the darkness, trying to get to me. After running into a chair, stubbing his toe and tripping over a toy, he finally made it to me. Frustrated and in pain, he whispered, “Is that you? I can’t see a thing!”. He didn’t even recognize me in the darkness, until I spoke. I marveled at how clearly I could see him as he struggled. He and I had the same amount of light in the room, yet my eyes saw clearly, and his very darkly. How we do this journey of life...could it really be all about perspective? Yes, it is according to 1 Corinthians 13:12. Our view is like looking through a dark glass, but one day, I will know, as I am known. It was so obvious to me that day, how much I can trust God’s ways in my life.
Don’t we all struggle as foster parents through the dark side of all this world? It’s hard to not be able to see past “now”. There are so many obstacles to navigate around. There’s paperwork, protocol, rights and laws. Then we think we’re in the clear and we’re blind sighted by a complacent judge, bitter lawyer, miscommunications, misinformation, disruption...the list could go on and on. When the truth is, those roadblocks didn’t just come out of nowhere. God saw them very clearly long before we came upon them. This world and it’s system will invariably tempt us away from our calling. God warned us of the impending struggle in 1 Corinthians 10:13. He made a way of escape, ahead of time from these frustrations and trials. Oh how must God feel as He calls out to us, and rather than listen for his voice, we use our own feeble efforts to navigate through the darkness? Sure, sometimes in my own strength, I could eventually muddle through it all. Then with the frustration, exhaustion, the bruises and anger, there is very little satisfaction in the end. You see, from the darkness that day, I did quietly call out to my son, and tell him to be careful. I told him that there was a toy there, and to walk slowly and go to the left around that chair. He was just so exasperated and rushed that he wouldn’t calm down, be still and hear my voice. By the time he got to me, he had forgotten what it was he wanted in the first place!
One day in heaven, we will see the light and it will all be so clear. He really was working it all together for our good like He said He would in Romans 8:28. What a relief of anxiety and worry! How glorious to have all of our questions answered and our tears wiped away?! However, here on this earth, we are not given that luxury. The way I see it, until we get to meet our Lord, we are left with 3 options. We can live in fear of the darkness, and never move forward, never take risks, deny our calling and accomplish nothing of any eternal value. We can move ahead in our own strength, beaten, pained and frustrated by the obstacles that constantly stand in our way.
We have the wonderful option to live a complete victorious life. I love Tripp Lee’s song Sweet Victory. We don’t stay in this battle for the victory it may bring. We fight as a result of the victory that’s already been won. Obviously, this life we’ve chosen is not free of obstacles. But despite that, we can choose to trust wholeheartedly in the instruction of our Father. Listening every moment for that still small voice in the darkness that enlightens our awareness of Him rather that our circumstances. After all, our children look to us for the same things that we look to God for...guidance, security, safety, love and hope. Should we not live the way we want them to live? Victorious! God lights our path as we walk (Psalm 119:105) and calms our fears (Zephaniah 3:17) with His knowledge and love. Do you take Him at His word? If so, hold on to these truths and carry them with you as we journey together through the darkness.
John 16:33 “I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have troubles. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
1 Corinthians 13:12 "Now we see through a glass, darkly, but then face to face, now I know in part, but then shall I know even as also I am known.” (KJV)
1 Corinthians 10:13 "No trial has overtaken you that is not faced by others. And God is faithful: He will not let you be tried beyond what you are able to bear, but with the trial will also provide a way out so that you may be able to endure it.” (NET)
Romans 8:28 "For we know that all things work together for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." (NIV)
Psalm 119:105 "Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path." (NIV)
Zephaniah 3:17 "For the Lord, your God is living among you. He is a mighty Savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs."